There Was Nothing Left to Do...

If some one where to ask me how my day went. I wouldn't know what to say. Today started off well. I came down about 10:30 to start some school work and was checking e-mail before starting. I had an e-mail from Bev notifying me that Rit had died. The rest of the day has gone based on finding that out. I cried at first, mom was in the basement with me and it took me a bit to finally tell her what had happened. I didn't believe it at first, I didn't want to believe it. But it was true. It was long before I realized that people needed to know. I realized none of his friends knew and I knew I had to be the one to tell. It hasn't been an easy day because of that. Trying to find out information about his death, his family. Trying to figure out which of his LJ friends to notify and and how hasn't been easy. How do you tell some one there friend has died? Especially over the internet? It hasn't been easy. I feel completely drained. I haven't cried a whole lot, but I never do. Just felt an overwhelming sadness. After my first initial cry I would come across something on LJ that would make me tear up again. His name, a picture, a comment. I just feel so numb and I still can't grasp the fact that he's gone.

Rit was a truly wonderful person. His faith in Christ showed so well. Even when he was down, he was willing to admit it and ask for help. You could see the love he had for his wife and child. That through his hardships, he was happy. That all the difficulties in his life had made him who he was. And that his faith was true. His life is a testimony for us all. I take comfort in knowing that he is know with his Savior and that someday, we'll see him again. I hope and pray much for his wife and child. This time can not be easy for them. Losing such an amazing father and husband. I went to the store a little while ago and almost started crying again in the car. Then while I was looking for a sympathy card, I almost did again. I keep thinking of Kim and Caleb and it just hurts. I came across this beautiful picture of Kim and Caleb in his Flickr - http://www.flickr.com/photos/koinegeek/52475199/

I only met Rit twice, and even then it was just a brief wave. It was Dragon*Con of this year and I was very busy and so was he. But it is his LiveJournal posts, his comments, that stick with me. He was always so kind and thoughful. I could always rely on having a comment from him. He reminded me a lot of my dad, they liked and do a lot of the same kind of things. And now they'll never get the chance to talk. My memory of Rit, will always be him at D*Con. Smiling and happy with a camera around his neck.